Posted on April 24, 2009 - by bj

Water would be nice

So, i’ve been in a funk lately…..i guess the best way to describe it is just being spiritually dry, or possibly complacent. i feel like it’s stemming mainly from my personal time, or lack thereof, with the Lord. There hasn’t been a lack of daily dialogue with Him, but it’s been hard for me to stop and rest in the word—not that i don’t have the time, but that when i do sit down to read, i’m not all there. i’m very distracted by external things. Honestly, my desire to be in the word is basically missing. What i want and what i desire are two different things right now. i want to be in the word, i’m obligated to read the word, and i should be in the word….but i don’t desire it right now (i want to desire to be in the word). Because of this, i’ve noticed that i’ve been getting frustrated easily with people and i thank God that it isn’t being played out in my actions and that i haven’t blown up at anyone, but i literally feel like i’m imploding. Another contributor is a lack of community—on a one on one basis. i’m surrounded by a great group of people and we have amazing times of fellowship each week and i work with some amazing men and women everyday but it’s hard to disciple and pour into other people when you don’t have someone doing the same for you. i’ve sought that out now and the Lord has provided, which is very exciting. my mood is actually changing as a write this post. Maybe i just need to write things out more often.

Can anyone else relate?